boy oh boy it's getting a wee bit nippy out isn't it?
"wild world wide web" is hard to say.
and what if my name were Bonnie Rabbits?
have a good day today.
~ 2023 ~ week_39 :||._triakontenneaphagia||:
hello little monkeys.
feeling like a gooey chocolate chip cookie.
I've been getting up at 5am this week. When you're trying to make healthier choices, people always tell you to make small reasonable adjustments. Because that's what works. For most people. Normal people. i.e., freaks. Me, i need chaos. i need brightly glowing extreme shifts and changes that can be serve as a kind of hobby, as a project. So it can't be "going to bed a little earlier", it needs to be "i get up at 5am now". That same impulse to always go all the way with everything can be turned and pointed in the other direction. healthy chaos. it's not "cutting down on drinking" it's 0 drugs, 0 alcohol. Anyway this is working so far this month. Maybe i'm a fool.
Met ZZ at the office for Teahorse Tuesdays on Thursday at the Fortnum & Mason at the Royal Exchange. Lovely time. Had a lovely week, honestly. In bed by 9pm most nights. Leave work between 1 and 2p.m. and go outside. Have lunch, get the train, lie on the heath listening to music. Got a little goofy towards the end of the week, even got the goofs in fact. They're gone now.
There was a space-themed warehouse party on Friday evening. Wonderful. So good to see everyone, beautiful people. So many so beautiful people. The community shares a problem that all open spaces do, how do you deal with bad and malevolent actors in a society founded on the principal that everyone should be able to be themselves and do what they like? How to deal with takers in a community based on giving freely. Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law can't subsist unless everyone involved is working on their magnum opus.
The place looked great, the music was great, everybody was dressed to the 9s. I finally had an opportunity to wear my cyberpunk glasses and my IKEA space suit. Around 4:30a.m. i headed home. Sober partying is pretty good, I'm all charged up with party energy and there's no noticeable downside. There were long stretches during which I'd normally drink something or take a drug and instead i just stood still, not knowing what to do. There were also a couple times when otherwise deeply sweet people were telling me some long meandering tale that even they weren't paying attention to. As though they'd fallen asleep and started dreaming at me. During these moments I became so intensely bored that I thought that I might just burst into flames. But they passed.
As a consequence of egodeath you might recall I lost almost all of my pictures of the festival. I had two disposable cameras, one of them was in the bag with my phone when it was taken by the night. The other was developed, and I gave some people printed paper photos of themselves at the party on Saturday. They are especially precious little pictures because they are the only ones i have. They were received very warmly.
The love I have for so many of the people in that place is so intense sometimes i feel that i might shatter into pieces if i'm touched. it feels difficult to contain, like if i open my mouth there will be light coming out and then through all my pores and then i burst and shatter.
ππ₯³ happy birthday lb π₯³π
note to self: i should add custom emojis to my blog
gabi and chee bathed in green light
gabi and chee ready to fight
web pages for quiet party albums
i made a cool web page for each of the last 3 quiet party releases.
each of them is fun in its own way
field disturbances
the field disturbances page includes an ascii-art interpretation of the field disturbances album art in a <pre> tag, and uses a linear-gradient and background-clip: text to create the kind of patchy colours that are used on the real album art (which is a heart rate history graph from an apple watch lol). The sound of field disturbances is an exploration into how to introduce more humanity into the sound of quiet party. But lb says her favourite track on it is the one that's least about that, so maybe i should give up.
big waterfall
it's very difficult to make an ascii art waterfall. i tried for a while:
i had chatgpt try too. its efforts nearly had me spit water over my whole computer and desk.
NOTE: I've configured ChatGPT to respond to me in character as Boyd Crowder from the tv show Justified.
So I gave up on ascii waterfalls and made it look like a polaroid picture. The image is a photo of the actual waterfall on the day big waterfall came to me all at once, gift wrapped and whole.
We were walking in the cascadas paraΓso in Honey, Puebla. We didn't have much time left. The nice ladies let us know that we could see a lot of little waterfalls or one big waterfall. We chose the big waterfall on the basis that it's better to have one huge intense experience than a bunch of little ok ones. Then, like a bolt of lightning: a mash-up of the t-shirt sofia was wearing with the big waterfall we were looking at, water-blue on white, line drawing of a waterfall with the text "big waterfall". And the sound: a tb-303 and a tr-727 together to make a kind of acid latin trip hop sound, and that's big waterfall. I said "we should get big waterfall t-shirts" and we learned we'd had the same vision, a line drawing of a waterfall in blue on white. She said she'd draw it, but never did. so i used clip art
CORN
On the CORN site, only the dog is an image and the rest of it is all css boxes and borders and background colours. The album cover for CORN was a collage of old public domain adverts. i made that one a few months before starting to work on CORN.
On CORN I was trying to find new sounds, each track was very different and made using a different set of instruments and tools. It was hard work, and I was very proud of it. But everyone always tells me they love big waterfall which i made in like 2 weeks in Mexico, so maybe i should stop trying.
who rememers the 38th week of 2023
Why worry? Just exist!
If you're feeling low we can do the twist!
there were more strange motorbicycle scenes outside at 2am on monday night. lots of people rumbling around on motorbicycles out there in the street. some kind of motorbicycle drag racing event. and i am an old lady peering out at them from between the blinds.
this week:
- yoghurt meditation
- coffee with and without eggs in it
- dancing
- you think i'm never lonely because i'm so cute and popular?
i released an e.p. this week called field disturbances, it's available everywhere. it has a whole philosophical component to it that i haven't written down anywhere and i'm not going to start now.
there's not much going on other than that. i just work and make music.
in some ways this regularly blogging on a Sunday has backfired. i started it because i wanted to write on the blog more often. but if i look back a few years i used to write all kinds of different posts and now i save everything up for Sunday. eh, whatever.
even if in a year or two
someone drops a bomb on you
you won't feel it on the scene
think of the fun we can have in between!
did you know there is a 3emdash and a 2emdash in unicode? look how long they are:
- em
β - two-em
βΈΊ - threeem
βΈ»
going to go to bed at 9p.m. and get up at 5a.m. tonight, to see what that's like.
in closing, here are the lyrics and chords to the song Greasy Greens by Pink Anderson:
Greasy Greens β Pink Anderson
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F (open a, ab, g) [open dgb] [233 on dgb] [3233 on adgb]
F (open a, ab, g) [open dgb] [233 on dgb] [3233 on adgb]
F F6 F A
Folks I'm just a man from New Orleans
Bb F
Crazy 'bout them greasy greens
A Bb F
If I don't get 'em three times a day
[3 on d] [3 on d] [3 on a] [3 on a] [4~ on e] [4~ on e] [1 on e]
I'll get mad and walk a way
F [1^2 on g] [1^3 on b] [1 on e*]
Them greens
F F7
all I want my greens (they won't stop for the red light)
A Bb [2 3 on a] F
Soft and easy good and greasy
[3->8 on a] [4~ on e] [4~ on e] [1 on e]
Crazy 'bout them grea sy greens
Way down south where I was born
They raised them good old green corn
Sweet potatoes & Black eyed peas
Green tomatoes and pecan trees
But them greens all I want my greens
Soft and easy good and greasy
Crazy 'bout them greasy greens
Mama you can cook your lima bean
you can cook somethin I ain't never seen
But Honey when you fix ya table for me
Ah don't fix nothin but:
Them greens all I want my greens
Soft and easy good and greasy
Crazy bout them greasy greens
That meat you use must be fat
Cook them greens so greasy like that
If you don't use nothin but naturaline
You can't cook no good greasy greens
Them greens all I want my greens
Soft and easy good and greasy
Crazy 'bout them greasy greens
I don't care what your mama don't allow
Bring them greens here anyhow
Soon as I get 'em, honey, I'll be gone
Your mama won't know that you put them on
Them greens all I want my greens
Soft and easy good and greasy
all about them greasy greens
I see greens upon your shelf
You must be saving them for someone else
I hear hissing in your pot
Honey, how much greasy greens you got??
and them greens. all I want my greens.
soft and easy good and greasy
wild about them greasy greens
2023.w_37
i am not been eating enough. had a great 9/11 this year. celebrated by signing my lease and meeting becky for a picnic. it was a lovely picnic on the heath even though i was 10 minutes late and got in trouble. after our picnic of babybels and quorn we went looking for a bar to get a cup of tea. the Railway told us they couldn't serve us tea because they had no way to wash crockery because the kitchen was being renovated. the next couple of places were closing. the crown gave us a fine, though scant, pot of tea and we had a lovely time. i spent the rest of 9/11 playing beatsaber. i had 4 showers. i changed my clothes 3 times.
tuesday i spent working and playing beat saber. i very nearly went into the office. i did not.
wednesday i spent working and playing beat saber? who the fuck knows
thursday i went into the office. i sat in my special area chatting with my colleague for most of the day, and then we went looking for a bar to get a cup of tea. the teahorse was too busy, as was the next place, and the next place, and the next place. eventually we gave up and returned to the teahorse. but it turns out the teahorse doesn't even sell tea? what a silly name for a bar that doesn't serve tea. we gave up and drank an ice cold glass of garbage.
friday i spent the evening setting up full body tracking in beat saber so i can be one of those cool girls on youtube. i also cooked a delicious chili con carne with This Isn't Beef mince and cauliflower rice. everything in the bowl was a vegetable. it was good. maybe i'll be a vegetarian for a little while. though i was crunching on ice on thursday so i should get some iron tablets.
since getting back from portugal i have become the worlds worst texter. i have so many unreplied texts and messages. i've been using a new trick when i find myself wasting time looking at The World Wide Web or apps or watching bullshit or listening to mindgum i say hey siri set a ten minute timer and when the timer goes off i have to stop and that really springs me into action. for some reason setting the timer makes it so much easier to stop than just deciding to stop and trying to stop idek. sorry for not replying
saturday i spent making music :) i also played cyberpunk
saturday night/sunday morning at 2am/26:00/14pm somebody rang my doorbell and woke me up. at first i was so confused and didn't know if i'd dreamt the doorbell. sometimes i dream the doorbell. about 15 seconds later they rang it again. i was not expecting anyone. they knocked on the door some. i decided not to answer. i heard them go down the stairs and get onto a motorcycle and drive away. i still don't know who it was.
sunday is today. i spent the day making music :)
i am still 770 calories below my goal. how the fuck am i suposed to eat 770 calories? maybe i can drink 100 grams of butter
bespoke garfields for any occasion
need a garfield who hates thursday but love tagliatele carbanaro? we can help
girlfriend wants a garfield for the big birthday but he has to hate tuesday
loving pine nut pesto farfalle salad? we can make that garflied
what do you get for the man who has everything? wensday-hating su filindeu
eating garlfield
any garfield, any day, any spaghetti
I would like to extend my best wishes to all, even the haters and losers, on
this special date, September 11th.