Let me have your attention for a moment! ‘cause you’re talking about what? you’re talking about…

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it’s great when you wake up from a nightmare and it turns out the worst thing in the world hasn’t happened and it’s just normal in bed

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so last week i handed in my notice, and i’m starting a new job in just over a month. what a thrill. seven and a half years i was at this company. i’ve had genders that didn’t last that long.

i’m always surprised when i visit other areas of london. i forget that all that stuff is out there, and so close by. i hope i’ll learn one day to leave the house every day. can’t seem to get out the door most days. often i just lie there looking out the window wondering how to get outside.

we went to a concert, it was really good. dancing like a snake in a wicker basket. swaying and chittering. i could smell grass and feel the open air on my skin, and the walls behind them flicker blue sky. it ended early too which was nice because it’s good to sleep at night.

i was sick again a lot of the week, but i’m okay now. rode the train, blue and brown, underground. went all the way to maida vale to rest.

did you enjoy your long weekend? you can have a nice date at a KFC. and 420 in the park. that beckenham place park is really nice. it’s so big! and full of dogs and pretty flowers. they had a fridge with only sparkling water and Palestine Cola. nice pizza and great coffee (square mile beans & estate dairy milk).

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🌻 springtime 🌻

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do any of you other computer programmers who do it for work and fun enjoy writing bad code in your spare time? no-bem css, mutable state, everything all tangled up together. it’s relaxing like pyjamas

Accelerationists are having a good year, huh.

no no no
no

It’s weird that Michael Cera is the same age now as he was in Superbad, but Jonah Hill is like 40 years older.

it just started to get better

i’ve been watching all of Hal Hartley’s movies.

this is huge. i’m so happy for you

Spent some of the week sick, I guess I’ve been overdoing it.

oh fuck you

Trying to pull myself out of a tailspin now.

😳 oh no, but also hooray

I migrated my blog from my own server to netlify.

EEEEK

Went to an algorave with Lucky. Before that we hit up a Venezuelan place for some delicious arepa.

i am going to be so sad

I know somewhere inside me I’m happy and excited, so it’s strange that I’m reacting by falling into a mild depression where i sit in one place and eat Quavers and Skips.

chee I’m furious obviously

My planning whiteboard is wiped clean now and just has the blue text “i did it.”

oh mate! good luck to you and i’m sorry you’re off, but pleased for you if you are pleased about it

I’ll bring the trash out, put a wash on, have a shower, do the hair routine, put the bed away.

thanks for letting me know Chee

Though, I said that yesterday. And I’m still sitting here in the same spot.

whhhaattttt

Perhaps I need a reason. A reason to get moving.

There are no words that can describe this spanner in the works! How are you feeling about it though?

Or qualudes.

Omg

I had a job interview last week.

Good luck for what’s coming next

And another, and another, and another.x

It’s a very sad day for me :(

And another, and another, and another.

ooh! 😭

That process is over now.

I’m so happy for you

My blood sugar is running high at the moment. Having high blood sugar makes it more likely you’ll get sick. Getting sick raises your blood sugar.

wow!!!

It’s time to start a new temperance movement. Let me know if you’d like to be a part of Dry England. We’ll be writing letters and smashing up bottles and doing speeches about the devil’s brew.

We have not spoken often. When we have I have enjoyed your wisdom and kindness. It is sad that you are leaving.

I’m going to call a taxi now, and head to The Blues Kitchen.

I just want to say that you are a great engineer,  I don’t know many people as smart as you And I’m sorry I haven’t had the chance to get to know you better as a person

What do they have at The Blues Kitchen?

tiny little rabbits, dancing in the sun.

sky so blue.

sky so bright and blue.

tweety tweety tweety birdies.

a little visit to town, selfridges. brown snakes and yellow bags.

lucky came for a surprise weekend visit. it’s the spring! lying on the grass, doing crosswords in the sun. chitter chatter. all that and more.

there is more, as it happens. hopefully we can get into that in more detail in the coming weeks.

I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You’ve got mail.

it was the last week of my birthday month. thank you for the secret luck wishes, they’ve helped me take unexpected holiday and ride around afghanistan on my horse with my dog and eat tacos. i’d like a little more, if you have some to spare.

the week was nice enough. i visited the office. had dinner with becky avery on the 40th floor. great hummus. the vegetarian duck was a filthy bitter mushroom but everything else was delicious. except the creamed spinach tasted like fish. but the mashed potato was wow good, and the brocolli.

zippy the zip came visit and i made white girl tacos with ground beef and taco seasoning and the old el paso crunchy shells. my mother and me used to make that when everyone else was out of town, we’d get one of those old del paso boxes and a lettuce and some chicken and then we’d sit on the floor and eat it. that’s the only times i really remember us eating dinner with the TV off.

another good meal today too. we went out for eid for dinner and my waiter told my girlfriend i looked like a dead pakistani woman. great tagine. what else is there?

what else is there

i’m tired, a little nervous, everything’s gonna be okay. tomorrow we must all shower and eat well and worship the sun.

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p.s.

maybe Greg Kinnear had a point, in his opening lines of 90s romcom You’ve Got Mail:

Listen to this: the entire work force of the state of Virginia had to have Solitaire removed from their computers because they hadn’t done any work in six weeks.

You know what this is, you know what we’re seeing here? We’re seeing the end of Western civilization as we know it.

Name one thing that we’ve gained from technology. One thing.

You think this machine’s your friend, but it isn’t.

had a really big week. helped with a docs day at work, had notepads made. everybody involved did a great job and we had lots of fun.

had a couple of lovely days and evenings with the little birdie.

made doogh and sparkly pink with my drinkmate omnifizz.

running around robbing banks all whacked out on scooby snacks.

more later. wish me luck.

a lot happening at work at the moment. let’s wait and see.

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the data powered spiral to the bottom. imagine doing something because you thought it was a good idea. not anymore. now you need data to back it up. but if you want to do something brand new, something without precedent, what do you do? look at data for similar projects? well there’s no such thing as similar when it comes to magic. and things that work are magic. survey people? well it’s very difficult to communicate an idea. sometimes the only way to communicate it is to show it, but then it already has to exist. so what on earth are we going to do? we can’t just keep repeating these aesthetic copies of what went before. this can’t be all there is.

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i feel a bit sick, maybe i ate some bad fish. thursday was a long day, but it was so beautiful at the end. it’s nice to walk around and have a little burrito and walk around. zips handed over my birthday present. imported from italy. it’s a dolce & gabbana bialetti french press. it’s fantastic. i haven’t received many birthday presents in my life from people i’m not yet related to. i’ve had so many coffees from it already.

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i’d forgotten how strong a psychological boon it is to have such a clean and shiny home. it stays with you everywhere, even when you are walking around outside.

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rejoice!